Make A Decision

Well I didn't write in a couple days, so I'll tell you what happened.  On Thursday (3rd) I went over to Noah's house.   I had dinner with him and his family, then we went and got some movies.  We were just watching them in his room, sitting nice and close ;).  Oh!  When he picked me up, he had flowers for me!  I wanted to cry!  And he wanted me to "make a decision" whether we can "go out" or just stay friends and I said I wanted to go out, so actually, for about 24 hours, I had a boyfriend.  But the next day I changed my mind, cause it would really be best for us to just stay friends for a little while first.  So Chloe can have time to get used to me and Noah being friends.  We haven't been able to do anything all weekend :( but tomorrow (Monday) we're gonna hang out.  Hmm I wonder how things will go?  Cause he really wants to be ore than friends, but I can't.  I have to keep things at just friends...

Madison spent the night last night, and it was fun.  We went and saw Allie at McDonald's and talked to Audra through the drive thru.  Gotta go!

But I Don't Want To

I can't stand how ironic my life always is.  When a guy that I like finally likes me, something has to be in the way.  I like Noah, I like him a lot.  But I feel so bad about it, because of Chloe.  She would be really mad if she knew we were hanging out and stuff.  I just don't know what to think!  I want to do the right thing, but I don't want to!  That's confusing, but it does make sense.  I wonder if he is going to call me tonight?  I hope so...I miss him already :S  

No One Can Know

Well I kind of have a lot to say, but not a lot of time to write it.  Everything's just crazy right now, the thing with Noah.  Like, we've been talking on msn a lot, and we email each other, but we've also been hanging out.  He came over on Friday, and Sunday (last night).  Last night was the good time, cause we just talked and talked and we got to know each other a lot better.  Then last night on msn, another good talk.  We both told each other that we like each other.  And then we kind of just made a plan as to what we're gonna do about it, since no one can know about it.  I mean, we're just friends, and just want to be better friends, before we think of anything more than that.  Well I have to go to school so I'll write more later!

That's Like Bad Bad

Geez I am so mad.  I always like guys that I can't have.  Why does that always happen.  The person I'm referring to right now is Noah.  I really like him and stuff but nothing can/will ever happen with him because him and Chloe just broke up.  And that's like bad bad, you don't go for your friends ex boyfriend.  So, once again, another one bites the dust.  Allie told me that it seemed like he liked me last night, yikes.  

Yesterday me, Allie and Cammie hung out.  We did our usual "drive around town" thing.  It was a lot of fun.  A lot of stuff happened.  We met these guys from Detroit and they told us to come to a party with them later on and stuff.  We didn't go, but still, that was cool that we got to talk to them and stuff.  We went to the skate park and like everyone was there.  Noah came over to talk to us and he got in the car (backseat with me) and we talked to him for a while.  Then him and Myles sent Cammie off to get them pops, so me and Allie stayed at the skate park.  We just went over and sat on the box with Noah and all the rest of the guys.  Cammie was gone for a really long time and it was starting to get cold so Noah gave me his shirt.  Aw how nice.  Well by the time Cammie came back, a cop came and made everyone leave the park even though it wasn't dark yet.  So we gave Noah, Jeremy and Tyson a ride home (to Noah and Tyson's house). 

We ended up staying at Noah's house for a while.  We were in his and Tyson's room playing strip Foosball, but before anyone took off any clothes, we kind of got bored of it anyway.  Well since Jeremy forgot his CD at the skate park, me, Allie and Cammie went back to look for it.  It wasn't there, so we figured one of the other guys must have taken it, so we went to Myles' house.  Sure enough, he had it.  So we got the CD and got in the car and as we were backing out, Myles ran up and sat on the front of the car. So, we just kept driving, and we drove around the block and back to his house.  When we were leaving, there was this whole group of people just like hanging around sitting in the back of a truck and standing around it (Myles' neighbors) and as we were driving by them one of them mooned us!  It was so funny.   We were laughing about it all the way back to Noah's house.

Oh, the punk show on Friday was really cool.  Anchor War Machine was my favorite band there.  They were really good.  And cute too!  hehe.  Well, I'm gonna go now (have "chores" to do...woohoo).

We Were Like Freakin Out

Holy shit woa guess what happened, like 2 hours ago?  Ok, I was talking to Rowan earlier on msn, and we started talking about dances and stuff and he was talking about seeing me and my friends at dances and he's like, I should have a dance at my house!  And then I was tellin him about my party and then I was like, hey I should have one right now cause no one's home!  And he's like yeah I should come over and you call a couple of your friends and we can have our own dance.  And yea yeah he's just saying that right?  Of course.  So I added Julia to the convo and he's like Madison tell her the plan.  So I told her and she said she can't cause her mom won't let her go anywhere today.  So then he's like, well then how about just you and me Madison?  And I knew he wasn't being serious so I'm like yea sounds fun.  And he's like ok tell me where your house is and I'll be there in 10 minutes.  And in a separate convo box, me and Julia are like :O yikes!  Then he's just like, ok I'm on my way, bye!  

So then me and Julia were talkin, we were like freakin out.   So we got offline and she called me and we were just talking and I was saying, oh, he's not really gonna come over.  Him at my house, no way.  But then he pulls in the driveway!  And I'm like, shit!  So I let him in and I was still on the phone with Julia so she's just like, well I'm gonna go! Bye! and she hangs up leaving me alone with him!  

So we just talked for a while then went into the computer room and he was looking at Napster and then we went into the living room.  He went out to his car and got one of his CD's.  Well I put it in and he's like, ok dance.  And I'm like, I will if you will, and he's like well okay.  So we danced.  Then it was like about 7 and he had to go home.  And he gave me a hug before he left, I was like awww.  Then right away I went to the computer and got online to tell Julia what happened.  That was crazy.  I still can't believe it.  I mean, the only reason it is so crazy is because it was him!  But anyway enough about that!!!  

Well now about Corey.  Me and Allie hung out with him on Friday.  It was fun and I thought he seemed to have fun too.  I emailed him that night, but, he never emailed me back.  But the proof is that he's emailed Julia like every day this weekend, that's the proof he doesn't like me.  So, I'm giving up on him.  He doesn't want me, ok, fine then, he can't have me.  His loss.

The Mean Things I Say

Hey it's Thursday, we have Friday and Monday off cause it's Easter on Sunday.  Know what, I'm getting annoyed a lot by people lately.  I think it's just because I'm developing more of a sense of opinion.  It's just that now, I have opinions and I state them instead of only thinking them.  Not only that, I mean I don't say everything, but still, now I notice people that are "shallow" or have pointless thoughts.  Like for instance.  Like Allie always likes guys just because they're cute and she makes such a big deal of it like "Oh I know Cameron doesn't like me", but hello!  He doesn't even know you!  He knows you a little cause you just started talking on msn, but you've never even met in person!  And today I emailed this girl (the pacifier girl) telling her that it's weird and asking what the hell the fucking pacifier is for.  So, yeah, I think I need to work on that.  On my mean thoughts.  Maybe I need counseling or something.  Just so I can talk to someone who won't tell anyone the mean things I say.  I'm not always mean, I just got this way all the sudden.  I don't know what's wrong.  Maybe I need an "Anger Management Class" lol.  Tara's mom made her go to that, I can see why though.  She actually thinks like me at times, but she's a freak so that kind of contradicts because the freaky people are the ones that get on my nerves the most.  Okay I'm going to not write or say anything else mean about anyone.  Then soon maybe I'll even stop thinking it.

"Positive Attitude" Thing

Well that whole "positive attitude" thing works!  Oh guess who has been calling me every night for the past 3 nights?  Corey!  Late..... Got 2 Go!