I'll Just Say It

Poms tryouts are coming up soon!  They're next week.  I don't really have anything to say.  The thing I hate about writing in a diary is that sometimes I don't usually write my feelings in here because it just seems like there's going to be other people reading it.  **Editors Note: HAHAHA!**  I guess I'll just say it anyway.  

I have liked Austin since the beginning of last year, but I stopped liking him and started to be more of just a friend.  Now, I kind of like him again but I know that he doesn't like me that way.  He was talking to me about Laura and how he doesn't want to like her still but he does.  I give him advice and stuff and when it works I feel good and bad too because I don't want him to like her but if that's what he likes, then it's nothing I can change.  I think that Laura is a stupid bitch; not to be mean, of course ;), but I think he's really wasting his time and heart on her.  I didn't really notice that I like him until today in Biology we were both putting our slides away at the same time and our hands went kind of on top of each other and I got butterflies for a second.  It's not like hands touching is a big deal, and it's not like we've never touched before, so I don't know why I felt that way.