God Got Me Drunk

Okay, things are better now.  I don't feel at all bad about liking Myles cause now Taylor knows that I know that he (Taylor) lied to me.  I don't like Taylor anymore, it was stupid of me to like him, but who wouldn't fall for it.  So now, things are starting to focus on Myles and I.  We actually get along pretty good, really good when I think about it.  Of course, we haven't known each other for very long yet but so far things seem good.  I don't need to think of what to say when I'm talking to him.

I was also talking to Ben and he told me to ask Myles out!  There's a dance on Friday!  I'm going, me and Allie are both going.  And so are Myles and Ben!  Whatta coinkey-dink.  Oh!  I really hope something good happens at the dance!  I really really hope.

I've been praying (I know this sounds dumb but listen) for a boyfriend for Christmas.  Usually if I don't do it too often, I get what I pray for.  I'm so serious!  I specifically remember begging and pleading god for a boyfriend (a cute one!) and (I did not ask for a good boyfriend) I got one (Joey) about a month later!  But he wasn't all I expected of a boyfriend to be.  He was immature and just acted really dumb so that relationship only lasted 2 weeks.  I wanted a 'french kiss' so bad because I'd never done it before and I prayed and prayed.  I was so desperate that I said "I don't care who, just get me one".   So, since god has his ways, he gave Joey back to me for one night (Winterfest) just for that purpose basically.  I prayed and prayed once more for another one (this one was this year) because it had been a long time and I forgot what it was like.  So, I so foolishly asked "I don't care how, just get me one".  So, god answered not only that prayer but another forgotten one on the night of Homecoming.  God got me drunk and gave me a guy that wanted to kiss me.  If I hadn't been in the state I was in, I would not have kissed this guy, so god sure knows how to get his prayers answered.  

But now I have learned.  The prayer I have been asking for a while now is "help me to get a good boyfriend. One that loves me and has good qualities, and before Christmas if possible.  I also ask for a (yes another) kiss, but this time I want it to really mean something.  I want it to happen pre-going-out and be really good to even more-so provoke or convince this guy to go out with me".   That is basically my prayer.  It's the first time I've ever really written about what I've been praying for.  Let's now pray that my prayer is answered!!

**Editors Note: At least I have a sense of humor about the whole prayer/religious thing!  I'm using it in the only way I know how, to make out with guys.  Nice one.**